Smile Though Your Heart is Breaking

Today's idea:

Why is it that we struggle?

Well, let me rephrase that. It’s not quite struggle but move against the awesome current. I was reading a friend of mine's blog. And her thoughts were filled with pain for having lost someone she loved, she wanted them back knowing that she couldn't have him back. She said that one day he would realize what it was like to have her and feel sorry for what he'd done...but really he won't. No one ever hardly does. And that's the truth. People leave and hardly ever look back, except for the ones who end up left behind and picking up the scrambled pieces of their fragile hearts.

Is there a point to such suffering? I hardly think so.

Even as I stand at the brink of possible disaster, do I dare step in. Nor do I move back. I stand there watching the time pass before me knowing that eventually that disaster will swallow me in and take me whole, only to spit me back up and leave me scrambling for the pieces. Again, and again, and again. And I would say that if this is life, I would want no part of it--but I would be lying to myself. This is why we allow it to happen again and again, because maybe if it happens so many times it'll get to a point that we'll learn not stare the disaster in the face and let it swallow us. Maybe there's a different ending, but I hardly know that now. All I know is what I see before me, the black whole of disaster threatening to stop me now. This disaster that I have no control over to stop, this disaster is the making of others. The most I can do is steel myself and look forward bravely, since I have been told that bravery is a trait that many admire. But if nothing else, at least it’ll serve me as a mask to hide behind. Take of that what you will.

I would post my excellent work of art that perhaps tempted the fates, but I feel that I should wait and see where my disaster leaves me in the end before I do so. If nothing else, it will be interesting to see for sweet, sweet irony.

;} -This has been the Dizzy, in and out and everywhere in between.

The Nature of Jade

Today's Featurette:

The Nature of Jade
by: Deb Caletti


"I don't hold back my tears... Nature is never static, I understand. Change is ever-constant, clouds zipping across a sky. It is dynamic, complicated, tangled, mostly beautiful. A moving forward, something newly gained, means that something is lost, too... But I, like nature itself, am strong and resilient. Over the eons, pieces of me had been brave, and I can be brave too." (287)

Jade DeLuna has Panic Attacks and to survive in them she finds solstace in the things that give her peace, like the elephants at the local zoo. As she watches them through the web cam, she sees a boy in a jacket, a red jacket. She becomes fascinated with him and the boy he carries with him as they visit the zoo; and is drawn to them.

The Nature of Jade shows us the raw emotions of life. The effects of change and the true depths of human emotions. Caletti shows us the world of elephants as a mirror image of some of the deepest emotions, how they can feel what we feel as well. How our emotions all connect, and unwind in a flurry of actions and events.

Caletti once more brings out the raw power of emotion through her writing and pulls you forth to understand the strength in Jade and if you look hard enough, the strength you can find in yourself.

Rating:

*****

[I still... need to find a neat little widget or something to rate!]

;} -the Dizzy says Toodalou!